Saturday, May 4, 2013

a new dawn?

Saturday, May 4, 2013 0

Hello you. Yes, you, the one writing on this blog, and the (only) one reading it as well. So, basically your own self, Ideris! :|I’ve lied to my own blog. I promised to write more since my last post. I had a nice break from the clinical terror, but I couldn’t remember what had kept me so busy that I failed to accomplish my vision of updating this abandoned blog of mine more frequently. It feels like telling lies to my own soul. Oh my desouled soulless soul!

Anyway, this is a ‘hot’ period of the year! Not only because summer’s approaching and the temperature is climbing up at a drastic rate, there’s also a huge event coming up this month. It’s the general election! I shall remember this year’s election because it’s my first time voting. I already handed my vote in last Sunday since I’m abroad currently, hence the postal voting need to be carried out earlier than the official date of voting to allow adequate time for transference or something. I’m sure you get the idea.

I’m kind of a newbie to the political matters. An amateur, if I may. But I’m trying to get a hang of it. Do I support Pakatan Rakyat or Barisan Nasional? There are others, but in national context, I don’t see the possibility of them forming a government due to the insufficient number of parliamentary seats being contested by them. So it’s gonna be either one of these two to govern the country.

To be frank, I’m not a strong supporter of any of the two but I’m no midway currently. I decided to choose the other one because of what I believe in and what I’m fighting for. Strong word, fight! LOL! Well again, I already voted. I voted for a better Malaysia. I voted for the whole citizens of Malaysia. I voted to choose for a better future for my future children. I voted for the future generations. I voted to show that all of us citizens have the rights to be voiced out. I voted to make people realize of the power held by the citizens on how this country should be sailed. I voted to show the politicians of how afraid they should be of us, citizens and not the vice versa. This is a democratic country, every person has the sole right to choose the direction of this country.

That’s why I chose not to vote blindly and solely for any party. I’m not to be a donkey following where the party is taking me. I desire a transparent government so everyone can have a say in every matter. In other words, I’m against obsession of any political parties, because these parties should be held responsible by the people without excuse. There can be no party which is not to be questioned of any wrong deeds done.

Once again, I strongly believe in the power of the people over the government. The ballot is stronger than the bullet.

We the people are the rightful masters of both Congress and the courts, not to overthrow the Constitution but to overthrow the men who pervert the Constitution. The people are the rightful masters of the country.
Abraham Lincoln

Pheww. So serious mah.

Monday, January 7, 2013

unlucky number one

Monday, January 7, 2013 1

I hope they like you like we do
I'll be proud to be like you
Just like you

Hello everyone (like there’s anybody).

I just finished my tests for my rotation in the Department of Obstetrics and Gynecology. It has been an amazing journey and I truly enjoyed it. I wrote this thing before the marks are out because usually the true judgment will be clouded over by the marks. So without knowing how I actually did during the tests, I can honestly say that I love this department.

Great doctors with great skills of teaching, great experience switching from one hospital to another almost every week and I should also say great patients. Why? Well simply because most patients are either pregnant or had just delivered a baby or maybe just got out from the operating theaters.  So these are exhausted patients, looking very tired and maybe unwell. Labor is very exhausting!!! Let’s take a moment to appreciate every single effort our mothers had taken to ensure our intrauterine well-being and be delivered safely knowing that it was a very difficult process, yet ended with smile and tearful joy. I  felt really touched observing a woman delivering her baby. 

I enjoyed this rotation so much that I honestly don’t really give a damn about my marks. But of course, I want to pass it. Oh wait, or not? Eh.

Anyway, this is the only major rotation for this year. We were tested by methods of OSCE and Mini OSCE, as any other major rotations. The trouble with OSCE is that, no matter how much I've read or prepared, that nervousness will always be there because I have to confront people during OSCE. Unlike Mini OSCE, we’re only confronting few pictures and a paper. Nobody was observing you giving the answers or making comments or expressions over your answers.

Some people say they only got the loose legs before seeing the question and once they saw it, and they started answering one by one (orally), the nervousness disappeared. But this is me. I don’t talk much. I always feel nervous every time I let a word out of my mouth. I tend to stutter. So the nervousness didn't really go away even after I started answering the questions. Or even if I knew my answers were right.

This was how I acted during my OSCE. I entered the room, looking at the examiner’s face while simultaneously greet (sometimes) and said my name. And then I sat down and read the questions. My head stayed down throughout my whole answering/thinking process. Not once did I look at the examiner. My eyes were stuck on the question paper, or stool or maybe the floor. When the time was up, I faced up, looked at the examiner’s face and said “Thank you, doctor.” Every single time. I think I need to learn how to speak in the presence of people I don’t know well. I should know how to get comfortable. Hell I can be calm throughout anything, but once I have to speak, my heart got caught in the spotlight.

I’ve got nothing to say actually. I just wanted to keep this blog updated. What else to say?

Ok that’s all for this post.



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