Monday, January 7, 2013

unlucky number one

Monday, January 7, 2013 1

I hope they like you like we do
I'll be proud to be like you
Just like you

Hello everyone (like there’s anybody).

I just finished my tests for my rotation in the Department of Obstetrics and Gynecology. It has been an amazing journey and I truly enjoyed it. I wrote this thing before the marks are out because usually the true judgment will be clouded over by the marks. So without knowing how I actually did during the tests, I can honestly say that I love this department.

Great doctors with great skills of teaching, great experience switching from one hospital to another almost every week and I should also say great patients. Why? Well simply because most patients are either pregnant or had just delivered a baby or maybe just got out from the operating theaters.  So these are exhausted patients, looking very tired and maybe unwell. Labor is very exhausting!!! Let’s take a moment to appreciate every single effort our mothers had taken to ensure our intrauterine well-being and be delivered safely knowing that it was a very difficult process, yet ended with smile and tearful joy. I  felt really touched observing a woman delivering her baby. 

I enjoyed this rotation so much that I honestly don’t really give a damn about my marks. But of course, I want to pass it. Oh wait, or not? Eh.

Anyway, this is the only major rotation for this year. We were tested by methods of OSCE and Mini OSCE, as any other major rotations. The trouble with OSCE is that, no matter how much I've read or prepared, that nervousness will always be there because I have to confront people during OSCE. Unlike Mini OSCE, we’re only confronting few pictures and a paper. Nobody was observing you giving the answers or making comments or expressions over your answers.

Some people say they only got the loose legs before seeing the question and once they saw it, and they started answering one by one (orally), the nervousness disappeared. But this is me. I don’t talk much. I always feel nervous every time I let a word out of my mouth. I tend to stutter. So the nervousness didn't really go away even after I started answering the questions. Or even if I knew my answers were right.

This was how I acted during my OSCE. I entered the room, looking at the examiner’s face while simultaneously greet (sometimes) and said my name. And then I sat down and read the questions. My head stayed down throughout my whole answering/thinking process. Not once did I look at the examiner. My eyes were stuck on the question paper, or stool or maybe the floor. When the time was up, I faced up, looked at the examiner’s face and said “Thank you, doctor.” Every single time. I think I need to learn how to speak in the presence of people I don’t know well. I should know how to get comfortable. Hell I can be calm throughout anything, but once I have to speak, my heart got caught in the spotlight.

I’ve got nothing to say actually. I just wanted to keep this blog updated. What else to say?

Ok that’s all for this post.



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