let me go home

This is just a tribute to my hometown, Muar. eh. Tribute? Any word will do. haha...
Please ignore any romantic crap you sense in the song. If any. I just want to focus on the coming-home theme. haha...

Another summer day
has come and gone away
in Paris and Rome
but I wanna go home
Home...

May be surrounded by
a million people I
still feel all alone
Just wanna go home
I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters
that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
I'm fine baby, how are you

I would send them but I know
that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
and you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
but I wanna go home
I got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living
someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
when everything was going right

And I know just why you could not come
along with me
This was not your dream
but you always believed in me

Another winter day
has come and gone away
in either Paris or Rome
and I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
a million people I
Still feel alone
Let me go home
I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
baby I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It'll all be alright
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home

[bando Muo]

[bus station]

[a magnificient view from the river]

[a mosque just across the river]

credit goes to Wikipedia. LOL

p/s I strongly deny any attempt of saying this entry as some sort of home sick. The hell it's! haHHa!

of trap, exit and escape

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

- Robert Frost

This rutted route,
I'm well aware
of the snubbed ground
I'm standing on.

One more smile I fake,
I'm a plastic.
One more notch I make,
Then I'm a broken plastic.

If a broken plastic is what I'm destined to become,
so be it.
If surrender is the word,
then let it be so.

Exhausted by this perpetual fight,
the continuous vexation is no longer a choice.
It was an option
which later became the fate.

- inspired -

Millions of copies of it are in circulation.
Day and night,
it is ceaselessly recited.
In homes,
in mosques,
and from pulpits.
Voluminous exegetical works exist
expounding its meaning.
Words pour out
incessantly to explain its teachings
and to exhort us to love by it.

Brotherhood

The believer is friendly, and easy to befriend. And there is no good in the person who does not befriend and does not get befriended.

{ Musnad Imam Ahmad }

I just came back from Austria yesterday. It was a wonderful journey. I never thought myself would travel to Europe especially all by myself. This had been a real travel. Not just a vacation.

Before reaching Austria, I've been thinking about how life would be as a Muslim traveling in Europe. I feel really lucky to have been sent to Jordan to further my study in Medicine. Practicing Islam has been very easy in Jordan as it is a Muslims country.

Mosques are everywhere.
No doubts when eating.
and so on...

In Europe, it'd been quite a new experience.
You can't expect to find any prayer room in public. If any, it would be the prayer room for Christians. I mean, it's like a church.

Dogs are everywhere. So it's kind of doubtful to perform prayer in any public areas.

That was one thing.

Another thing is about foods.

It was quite tempting actually seeing seafood or chickens or lambs or any meats or even salads. I was being too careful in eating. As if all of their foods contain wine. Well you can't blame me, because that was what I saw on televisions. Europeans like to put some wine on any of their dishes. Even Martha Stewart put some wine in her salad. haha...

About 9 days in Austria, my main menu each time was breads. haha...
I also brought some foods from Jordan. And luckily, I ought to find some Halal restaurants in Austria. They are usually Turkish restaurants with Kebab as their main menu. But still, you can't expect to just walk and suddenly found a Halal restaurant. It's not everywhere. I had to search on the internet for any Halal restaurants. haha...

The third aspect I would like to mention is about brotherhood in Islam.
Ukhuwwah Islamiah.
Or whatever you want to call it.

In my early journey in Austria, I kind of felt alone. I mean, it was like I was out there all by myself. There was nobody to refer to. Well don't misunderstand. Austrian people are very kind and helpful. But, it was like lacking of something.

In Salzbrug, I found Arabic words in a shop. It is indeed a shop owned by Arabs. And there was this feeling. It was like they are so close to me. The word is relieved. I don't know why. It was not like Austrian people are bad. To be true, they are wonderful people who are very friendly. But when I met any Muslims, there was this bond. It was different. We were like brothers. I got excited.

For all He has done to me, I'm very grateful for what I am.

It's true. Traveling is one of many ways to know people. And to realize how grateful we should be of ourselves.

I will try to upload some pictures here maybe next time. But it's not a promise though. huhu..

Thank you.

[ :: Abdullah :: Hidayat :: ME :: ]
Thanks for everything. It really was an exciting journey :)

NIHA'I

A short entry.

My final's gonna be from 17th - 27th 2010...
It's not actually, since I've already took the final paper for Genetics (Lab)...

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Online Exam Schedule
Course Name	Date	Time	Lab Name
GENERAL PATHOLOGY	Sun 24-01-2010	08:15 - 09:15	10H2
BIOSTATISTICS	Tue 19-01-2010	15:45 - 17:45	10H3
GENERAL MICROBIOLOGY	Wed 27-01-2010	08:15 - 10:15	10H2
MOLECULAR GENETICS	Thu 21-01-2010	08:15 - 08:55	10H4
GENERAL PHARMACOLOGY	Sun 17-01-2010	08:15 - 10:15	10H3

Checking my carry marks, Alhamdulillah. quite satisfy. I find this semester quite interesting. Very medical. LOL.

So that's it. Do pray for me.

sekitar ADHA 1430H

NOTA : aku memang malas nak cari template lain. oke ape wallpaper flickr ni.hua3~

Mungkin agak lewat. Tapi tak mengapa, orang jawa cakap better late than never. Jadi ingin la aku ucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha 1430H untuk semua umat Islam. Kullu 3am waantum bikheir, kata orang arab kat sini.

Secara keseluruhannya, aku agak berpuas hati dengan Adha kali ini. Memang tak tipu. Macam-macam benda aku buat. hehe.. Anak saudara aku datang jordan pun aku terlupa. Tak jumpa pun. haha..

Beberapa hari sebelum raya, aku dah setuju untuk tolong HILMI dalam lakonan dia untuk persembahan dewan nanti. ROZAILI, HARIZ, DANIAL malah MALIK pun turun padang. Memang kelam-kabut la kitorang dengan masa yang singkat tambah pula dengan masalah-masalah dalaman yang timbul. Lebih terharu lagi, Pengarah Program (bahagian dewan), HIDAYAT dan FAIZ yang tiba-tiba ada kat situ boleh pula turut serta berbincang segala sampai lewat pagi. Pagi esok nak kelas pukul 8.15 ni. Boleh pula tidur lewat.

[Hilmi dalam mood mengarah]

Dalam masa yang sama, aku turut terlibat dalam program Tautan Adha BKPJJ. Nak sebut juga, Pengarah Program bak kata orang. Amnya, aku seronok jadi bos. Yela, arah-arah orang je, buat kerja sikit. haha... Kira puas hati la. IBRAHIM pun turut serta jadi biro persegaran. Aku cuba juga ajak MUHAMMAD, tapi ada hal lain katanya. Tak mengapa, aku memang faham semua orang banyak tanggungjawab.

Nak aku sebut, FAIQ dengan BKASJ nya. JAQ, FADZLI dan HADI dengan KMKJ pula. TUAN dengan PR nya. ARIF pula setiausaha permai juga biro program untuk program dewan nanti. DZIYA si biro publisiti. MURSYID sibuk menguruskan perihal ahli-ahli PERMAI yang nak berkorban. AZZAM pembantu setia untuk majlis dewan, juga masih dalam mood debate dia.haha...

Lepas habis periksa Genetics Lab, SYAMIL pula telefon aku. Nak minta tolong jadi driver die rupanya. Sebab dengar perkataan kereta, terus setuju. haha... Kesian HILMI ditinggalkan begitu sahaja. Maka aku pun bertukar bos. Daripada HILMI, ke SYAMIL pula.

Sejak hari pertama lagi, memang rancak aku pandu kereta sewa tu. Ulang-alik dari ladang ke tempat melapah. Angkat pula daging-daging dari tempat melapah ke rumah akhawat. Lepas tu, nak agihkan ke rumah-rumah pula. Memang gaya transporter la aku kiranya. Terharu sekali bila dapat lihat depan mata macam mana lembu, kambing dan unta disembelih. Dan Alhamdulillah, aku dapat tunaikan ibadah korban tahun ni. Lembu pun lembu la. Itu yang paling murah. hoho~

[orang sibuk melapah, boleh plak sempat pose]

Hari raya pertama dan kedua, sama sahaja kerja aku. Ulang-alik ke sini ke sana. Takda nya nak berkelesa-kelesa sini-sana. Pemandu sepenuh masa. Banyak masa di ladang. LUQMAN, AFNAN dan ASYRAF pun tolong melapah di ladang. HARIZ pula jurugambar ekslusif. haha... Hari raya ketiga pula, sekali lagi aku berasa bertuah sebab dapat ziarah kawasan kem pelarian Palestin berdekatan balad Irbid. Kalau FAWWAZ, HIDAYAT, HASHEMI dan ABDULLAH ke sana dengan projek Ekspedisi Hati ke Hati, kami pula rombongan lain. Aku, IKHWAN, AMIN dan SYAMIL. Alhamdulillah, kami dapat sampaikan daging-daging kambing, lembu juga unta. Berkilo-kilo juga tu rasanya. Terharu sangat dapat ziarah markaz mereka dan juga markaz anak-anak yatim di Markaz Taqwa.

[sempat bgambo depan markaz anak yatim]

Majlis dewan malam tu pula. Aku puas hati juga la. Seronok juga layan lakonan arahan HILMI tu. Budak-budak 2nd year termasuk pengarah lakonan sendiri turut berlakon dek tak cukup tenaga yang sanggup berkorban untuk lakonan semudah tu. Teringat aku masa majlis adha tahun lepas di dewan yang sama. Susah nak nampak rakan-rakan batch aku untuk duduk tenang di kerusi penonton layan majlis sambil gelak-gelak tengok teater atas pentas. Yang belakang tabirnya, yang berlakonnya, yang jadi ketua biro ke sini ke sana, yang persegaran bekerja di dewan makan (ape ntah nama dewan) tak masuk dewan Al-Kindi langsung.

FAIZ yang duduk sebelah aku sempat bisik, "Dapat juga aku duduk jadi penonton kat bawah tahun ni."

Oke la. Majlis dah lepas. Semua perkara da selesai pun. Alhamdulillah, aku syukur sangat-sangat banyak betul peluang yang aku dapat tahun ni. Boleh aku kata, tugas sebagai driver meluaskan lagi peluang aku untuk turut serta terlibat bekerja bersama-sama mereka yang bertungkus-lumus memastikan program berjalan lancar.

Ucapan TAHNIAH dan TERIMA KASIH buat semua yang terlibat sama ada secara langsung atau tidak dalam membantu mengendalikan program adha tahun ini.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA 1430H
كل عام وانتم بخير

p/s akhirnya update juga blog ni lepas 2 bulan coma

to be HOME

It's been a while since I wrote my last entry.Things happened.Too many.And it just happened.huhu...

But the most exciting thing was of course me coming back to my hometown. I'm now in Malaysia. Or to be specific, in Muar. I'm well aware that technically my home is now considered located in the area of Ledang [Tangkak + part of Muar], but still I consider myself as a Muarian. It was the place where I grew up and even changing the name is kind of hard for me.I've been using that 'Muar' name since I was born.huhu...

Yet after a year, I came back.
26th August 2008, my flight from Kuala Lumpur to Mumbai.
It was a journey full of hope.
It was the beginning.
I learned about life.
The meaning of life.
The chances in life.
The moments in life.
The excitements in life.
The true life.
I know it's still a journey with miles to pass through.
But in my staying in Jordan, I would like to say that I've learned so many things.
It's not just things.
It's the amazing things of world.
Of the universe.
It's the experience.
Where we can tell other people.
It's the knowledge.
That made our life worth sacrificing for.
It's the survival of life.
We are proud of.
And it's the hope.
One of the things making us growing stronger.
While 26th August 2009, my flight from Amman to Bahrain.
It was an I-can't-wait journey.
Filled with excitement.
My final papers ended at 24th.
I chose 26th.
To complete the circle.
Of a year.
Of leaving my hometown.
Around 9 to 10 am, 27th August 2009.
I got to step on the homeland.
I got to feel the local breeze.
The weather was so familiar.
It was a different feeling.
Just like the first time I reached Amman.
"Here I am."
But with addition of the word 'Finally' at the beginning of the phrase.
Just a word.
But in a meaningful way, it expressed more satisfaction.
It was amazing how the environment can interact with the heart.

p/s yet after a month ++, I managed to write something, haha...
p/ss I passed my first week in Malaysia and am now nearly two weeks since I came back.hoho~
p/sss boleh raye kat msia taun ni~ hehe...